The Celestial CenterStage...

Kinda felt really woozy with the hot and dry AC air after my late lunch and lazying (that’s not even a word….still I like the sound of it) on my couch so decided to walk to the Carrefour to get some drinks. Was a very chilly evening walks….one of those ones where you have to push yourself against a wall to move an inch and above all your nose and lips are so frozen that they no longer form a part of you……but still it’s a heaven sent gift some times.
I thoroughly enjoyed that with 2 sweaters and a jacket all wrapped up…..On my way back had this weird thought that I have to express…..

i have always searched for answers from the blue infinity around the floating constellations...that blue space called the sky, that panel within which hang stars throbbing with a life of their own. Sometimes I am sure to receive a reply and at other times i find myself mesmerized and totally under the spell ...seeking answers which never get articulated the way i would wish them too…that inner voice if i can call it a consciences or my spirit seems to be my mind in a constant flux creating a sort of dissentions within..

I return again and again to my actions justifying myself and my deeds …then the stars above blink as though they understand my thoughts and are agreeable with my analysis ..the sky in its mysterious way unfolds itself offering me its infinite spaces. So I can fly out of my self created cage and glide through its immense spaces. Around the stars and the petulant planets that show directions to many a wayward night traveler.
There is that divine silence one gets to feel as though one is floating around a genteel aura...its as though you are filled up to the brim with peace ..With peace there might be an accompaniment of sorrow too but you are aware and deal with it in a very private manner…

We always ask questions to ourselves...
no matter how positive.....you always think the worst case scenario... Why is that??? I have absolutely no regrets to any decisions I have made yet I still find myself here outside on this cold March night on a distant soil looking at the GIANT OPERA of CELESTIAL FIRE BALLS... trying to search for something. I wonder when will I find what I am looking for , or even worst will I find that there was nothing that I was looking out to with such bated breath...
You know the only fear worst than being a total failure is the fear of being a mediocre ass. And the worst part is its not even about money ...They say everyone knows what they want...in that case I might be exceptionally dumb, cos for say I have absolutely no clue to put in a word as to what I want....although I have this very glim image which I am gonna dedicate my life to put into focus....But hey thats life, right and centre for you folks... Someone very wise once said " The most cruel human act would be to show someone their future, cos in reality you are actually robbing them of it...". Well as for me all I know is what I dont want.... and I am gonna cherish that....

Good night all you guys out there....